I'm your daughter and not your puppet.

Stop finding reasons to scold me when there's not any,

DAMN.

Staying at home to let you scold me as and when you like,

fat hope..

even your favorite son's gonna leave the home when he's 30.

You don't and will never appreciate,

i doubt i can live under one roof with you.

Happy now, people don't talk to you anymore,

keep scolding larh...

scold...

see who's gonna bother about you.

Scolding for nothing is ...DAMN...

always try to attract attention only.

Even papa says he wants to go back to malaysia once we've grown up...

so please, stop being bossy and stuck up!..

You're not the QUEEN anyway.

And i'm gonna see how you gonna survive without us..

Your sisters?..

Shall see.

They don't even treat you as part of their family. 

Keep complaining and shouting for no reason,

everyone dislike you.

I always try to take care of you right..

but what have you done to me?..

Treat me nicely when you're happy,

and shoot me with blunt words when you're moody.

Even the maids cannot tolerate your attitude.

Stop thinking that you're above us can..

you're nothing. 

We need our own life,

just try to find your own life please.

MUMMY, you've hurt me many many times okay..

ARGHX... i hope school will start asap,

I DON'T WISH TO STAY AT HOME AND FACE THE QUEEN EVERYDAY.

and stop saying that i look like my mum okay...

i hate the fact that i look so much like her,

i mean.. it's unfair,

my brother don't look like her at all.

But kor says, if you kind of look carefully,

i'm more alike to mymy (my youngest auntie).

Then papa always say that when i used to be fat.. I kind of have carrot leg,

and that looks like mummy..

but now that i've slim down,

my legs are just like his.

Then he always make fun of mummy,

like kor, myself and dad got similar legs but only mummy owns carrot legs. 

Then kor always says that  he got bird's legs...

i swear it's very skinny for a guy to have such legs.

I think it's fair... on our legs.

My foot size is quite big for my body , it's about the same size as my dad when i'm only 154cm.

Papa's got hairy fair legs, even fairer than mine know. 

Yeh, I did play this song on my blog many months ago.

I'm not sure whether it's my luck or am I being curse... erghx.. it's my 3rd year of bad luck.

Nahx, frustration and getting annoyed are jut useless emotions, but how am I gonna solve all the problems?.. and is it possible to solve them?

Like yesterday.. hmm, I went down to NAFA after two weeks of silence from the school, no responds, nothing. Guess what the person from admin told me?.. The head of department is not available.. they're at vietnam and will only be back next week. And what did they told me 3 weeks ago?.. Hmm, the person in charge of special entry is on trip for 2 days, and again the letter that janet sent out.. I only received it like more than a week after i've spoken to her. I quickly brought it down to nafa and , that person was not around.. I was told that the person incharge will give me a call when he's back but there's no respond at all. I went down two days later, and yeh.. that person was back.. he photocopied everything and he called me like more than a week later telling me that the documents weren't clear..  I got my doc. scanned and quickly sent it to him. Yeh, and the vietnam thing was what I was told yesterday. So, am I gonna explain everything to them if they blame that I'm too late?..  I've been like waiting and waiting for the interview for years.. and the worst thing is.. they didn't even inform about anything, just kept quiet and waiting for me to go down and asked personally. The school told me to wait for their calls and they didn't even bother to inform me that everyone's out.

Okay, enough.. =) I shall just wait for another week. It's either NAFA or JDMIS now.

Oh been moody lately.. but i've tried not to go into details and think too much. I mean even when you're in trouble, you are not supposed to cry or even giving that crumpy face everyday..

I want to be a happy person, and I shall make myself a happy person. 

FACE IT. BOO!

Oh, yeh.. I nearly went black out the previous night, so scary can.

Breathless+ numbness in limps+ no strength to stand

New HK items and little gifts that let me happy..

these will add on to my collection, HAHA.

Oh, my toy watch is missing though, hmmm.

People were kind, 

they bought me little kitty.

The ice cream cone was from my brother,

handmade bookmark from husband,

roomslippers from mummy,

kitty baking sheet from dad,

rubbery key top was from ruey jen and ernerst (my brother's friends),

as for the mouse I got it myself.

Haha.

Whole world knows I'm a KITTY lover.

Can I plant the lovely cat in my room please. 

Oh yeh, mummy got me a lovely flower last wednesday,

the flower motif itself is exactly the size of lulu's butt. =)

Shall post it next time.

When I think of you, every unhappy scene starts to flash back..

remember the last day I met you, how many times did I beg you to meet me for once,

waiting from morning till night.. I used to be silly indeed, you let me feel like a slut.

Since the day we broke up, it's the day of relieve,

and I don't see why I still need you as a friend.

Don't ever read my profile and interrupt my life thanks,

Thanks.

I've just deleted everything about you.

No, I'm not referring to yk and colin, 

they're my friends.