these were thy photos that i intend to upload on sat.

TOP: that's my lovely son. booboo lonely at home. cause i'm not at home for most of thy time. and his booboo uncle ryan don't like him though, so poor boy...he got no one to play with.

BOTTOM: absolute aromas essential oils at serenity spa.

well, actually i've been thinking over and over again. why am i so shy...how come i don;t like to go out?... how come this...and how come that. bleah.

i felt that i've actually got no prob you know...just that i've got 0% confidence in my english...that's why i feel bad. beyond that , i guess i'm alright. frankly speaking, since young to now...i nv got thy idea that i'm stupid. espeially after sec3. but just that i can't study well, as in can't have good grades. but that's on sciences, el, those sec schs subs larh. but english wise...though i can't speak good el, but at least i tried...and i do believe that...when i'm to give myself more confidence... el won't be a prob for me in thy future. okay, but why do i said that i'm not stupid. because, i've helped my dad in planning thy hostel stuffs.. even when i was taking Os...i came out with a food list or sth... what to do inorder to attracts more students. having more detailed documents. sending reports to their parents each and every month. so that they know how's their children are doing here. but this is impossible if you ask mummy to do that. ecerything she haiz....haiz....only. but who know's about it?... i've been thy one planning helping papa... did anyone found about that?... so now, can you look at thy picture more clearly. see... since young..ppl just declared me as a shy girl...blur...worst ...a useless person. but come on... i've been doing many things these few years. and ppl do asked me...why am i so diff from others. ppl tend to play during my age. but do you think i can play when i need to plan for my dad?>... since sec 4 i'm getting more and more stress okay. papa kept complaining that he can't communicate with mummy...den how?... thy only way i can do is to help papa. and it have been years okay... and thy stress is adding on each day. if i still continue to keep my mouth shut...ppl would only think that i'm a dumb. straight away ppl just pin point that i can;t study ... i'm not like my other cousin. but did anyone bother to find out how much stress i've been taking?... that's why i felt that it's rather unfair lo... all along i've been doing things know...and ppl just look down on me. what is this man. even my mummy oso look down on me alright.. it's okay...that's why i'm working so hard now. i'll prove to others, i'm strong.