Spending quite some time on thy ring..
it's big.
Quite alot of seed beads being used.
Thy motif itself does seems like i'm matching it with
a nonya kabaya.
Does thy colours combination remind you of thy
beaded nonya shoes?
Infact my brother said that it's so 'thai & nonya'.
ooo... but still I love thy new work piece.
YAY.. I'm enlarging thy collection of rings!
Thy target is 600 pieces of rings at thy age of 30.
It's true that I didn't treat myself well enough,
working hard everyday..
BEADS.. it's a passion though..
yet it's not that you're given a choice to bead or to stop,
I'm trying hard, really really hard everyday..
baking.. yes,
standing right infront of thy hot oven,
I seriously don't think that it's healthy.
When thy sch starts, I'm gonna say GOOD BYE to
thy daily routine I'm leading now.
I'm very tired, GOD DAMN TIRED!
When was thy last time I went shopping?
When was thy last time I shop for clothes and cosmetics?
When was thy last outting with my friends?
I'm being stucked in thy situation ever since thy start of RM*
I've been spending on beads, fabrics, baking materials, etc.
And thy eyes... ooo, even my brother said I'll turn 'pa jiao' one day.
I don't mind having cold responds,
but I believe on thy success one day.
Back lasalle, it's just getting one step closer to thy goal i've set for myself.
When sch reopens it'll be lasalle, RM* & RdM..
and i'll probably got no time for others.
So, before thy school starts..
i think it's time to give myself a good treat..
something that I like..
hmm.. shall pick up crochet again..
or
back to thy ballet class
or
flamenco class
or
get a coach to train on my badminton skills.
I'm someone who can stand loneliness,
it's true that I don't mind being alone..
I don't mind shopping alone..
I don't mind doing many things alone.
Infact I enjoy being alone.
There's nothing you can change about my character,
I just love thy quietness when no one is around..
okay.. unless i'm gonna catch a movie or going for ktv session or badminton session.
You can't expect someone to play badminton by herself right?..
none go ktv session alone yeh?..
But i mean.. I prefer being alone for most of thy time.
I prefer dolls to be my companion, and that's thy reason for sewing so many plush dolls.
Sitting in thy room with beads on my,
and then thy little group of cuties beside me..
oOoooo... that's heavenly.
At first, I thought it's being autistic..
but no, it's just thy personality that shows a quiet character.
So, don't ever change others life to suit your character..
if you're out going by all means spend your time to socialise with people.
But i'm not you..
I love being alone and to spend my time with my fav. interest/ passion.
Thy diffence is.. You facing people, and ME facing dolls/ ring.
I prefer doing things in solo,
because I'm that kind of person who needs to participate with 100%
and concentrate with 100% when I'm working on something.
I don't have any commitment to anyone but maybe my family, thy two younger sisters (yilin and pearlyn),
and my greatest desire.
You gotta give up give up on many things when you want something.
So, I shall cross my finger and hoping that I will not be attached through out thy education years,
or at least before thy first diploma for myself.
It's time to concentrate and to work extremely hard for thy future,
it's just 11 years to 30..
I don't have much time left to waste and to spare for other things .
YES, I want to be a gemologist one day..
and I know I need to put lots of effort in order to become one,
but not to worry, I'm just like my fav. cactus..
I will never give up that easily..
okay, that's because i'm renee and not yinghui.=)
[i am a flower, soaking in thy rain...
so when will i see your face again...
when will you touch my life again..]
-thy stranger who gave me strength and energy to live on,
hey, unknown.
it was a rainy day in my memory.
